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Honestly. I have no idea what to put here-- Time to be creative! Cold weather is the best. The small bites of fresh cold air nipping your skin is a blissful feeling to me. Add the caws of crows into that, and the mixture is almost complete to perfection. I suppose you could say I like weird things. Bats, rice with ketchup, singing in the car/shower--are what I have been told is "not normal", but what is normal these days or at all? Reading is pure joy and so is cooking too, although I like cars and generally having a good time. The rush of gliding down snowy slopes is AMAZING when snowboarding, everything feels so free and running on grass kicking a ball into a goal hoping it goes in is so much fun, I really dig soccer (football).Music is a huge source of inspiration for me when I draw; without it, I could never do the things I ever imagined and martial arts is nothing short as a contributor to my family history and life. My family life is--close, though I am so independent it drives me crazy, which I will never admit verbally. My best friend keeps me sane for the most part and our adventures together are memories I would never want to change.
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Devious Journal Entry

Thu Nov 12, 2009, 6:12 PM



I have to let off some pressure. I don't really like to talk or write about my personl problems but I feel like I am going crazy...

I can't think straight right now knowing there is nothing I can do to help someone....I feel like I am cracking under pressure because my heart is racing, trembling with anger, tears rolling, sadness--I don't know what to do.

The medication I am taking right now isn't helping either since it causes dizziness. Its a pill to rejuvinate my immune system...

Scream, yell..no run. I want to run, run away to that place and help with what I can...but here I am--sitting--like a cagged animal, breath quickening pacing in my thoughts of what to do...

Common sense tells me to sit back and relax to just be patient and everything will be fine. But my stubborness says just go there and do something about it, instead of pittying and feeling helpless do something about it and don't complain..

If I could do that, I would, but I know if I did, it would only cause trouble for few people around me. Few people that is my family and if I did this amongst other things to fill my crazed satisfaction, I would be the icon of worst/bad/terrible/no good/stupid/a female dog in heat....rationalizing with myself is so hard....

So all I can do right now, is sit and wait and hoping everything will be alright...

I don't know..I'm... just sad really... overall.

  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: For my phone to ring
  • Reading: --
  • Watching: --
  • Playing: The waiting game
  • Eating: --
  • Drinking: Green tea

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Texas
  • Interests: Many things
  • Favourite movie: Too many
  • Favourite band or musician: Too many
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock
  • Favourite artist: Benjamin Burnely
  • Favourite poet or writer: Vivian Van Velde
  • Favourite style of art: Too Many
  • Favourite game: Too many
  • Favourite gaming platform: console and pc
  • Favourite cartoon character: I have no idea
  • Personal Quote: Are you kidding me?

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:iconfelixader:
Another find that hopefully will ligthen up your day: [link]=player_embedded#

By the way, i finally took a chance and ordered me an new PC!uaaahahaha, that will be awesome working onthat thing when it arrives.. ^^
:iconblood88:
how are you doing? :hug: i hope good. ^_^

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"Every day, humans come one step closer to self destruction! I'm not destroying the world, I'm saving it!"

Albert Wesker
:iconbatkisses:
I'm diong good thank you ^ ^ How are you doing? Hopefully pretty damn well hehehe :huggle: take care :heart:

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METAL GEAR!!!
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"I reject your reality and substitute with my own"
:iconblood88:
well i don't really feel all that snazzy right now >_<

i just want to go to sleep for the weekend. and i want to be able to draw something good.... >_<

blah... blah blah...blah.


i'll be fine in a few days.


i'm glad you're doing good man.

:hug:

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"Every day, humans come one step closer to self destruction! I'm not destroying the world, I'm saving it!"

Albert Wesker
:iconbatkisses:
oh that sucks, hopefully you got some good rest.

You'll be able to come up with something in no time. (x . x)

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METAL GEAR!!!
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"I reject your reality and substitute with my own"
:iconblood88:
that i did.

yeah.... i did but nothing that makes me want to wake up early and work on

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"Every day, humans come one step closer to self destruction! I'm not destroying the world, I'm saving it!"

Albert Wesker
:iconpilcrowdesigns:
you are welcome :) love your photos.. your a beautiful model ;)
:iconbatkisses:
Oh..um-- Thank you for that compliment :blushes:...thank you for enjoying my photos! =)

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METAL GEAR!!!
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"I reject your reality and substitute with my own"
:iconotakuasylum:
REsident evil 6: the Jill sandwich chronicles

In this game barry fights his way to save his one love.

yesss, his two bun, toasted ham and bacon sandwich made by jill. Will he make it, he only has two days before it spoils.

NGM says "its one of the best RE games since RE:SURVIOR"

Cosplay.com "I cryed when he found his sandwich."

Rotten tamatos quoted that " Twilight was the worst movie ever made"

Playstation MAGazine reply " Delicious till the last bite"

Twice the action, more explosions than a micheal bay movie....

One man, one sandwich

Jeff daniels in his breakthrough performance as barry burton...

"T-virus????? Alll I want is my sandwich!!!!!!!!!!!!" -Barry burton-

(Big exposion)
Residental evil 6 ^-^

unrated....

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"Alrighty Geese, This is the foreplay!!!!
Here they come.....Its time to dance
ROCK AND ROLL!!!!!!!"
:iconangelichellraiser:
I've been meaning to ask how you're doing?

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